Thursday, October 16, 2008

My Littlest One...







I went on a field trip yesterday with Faith's class to Marmon Valley Farms. My little girl was so excited... not so much that she was getting to see how the pioneers lived, but that her Mommy was there meeting all her friends. She is growing so fast, I am trying to grab these moments to share with her in the midst of a busy life... my little lamb, as I call her. I so enjoyed our day.

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Drama, drama, drama...




Just sharing some of Drama Club on Thursdays... these kids are so alive, and learning how to improv and find character. LOVING THIS... The boys were behind the curtain, preparing an improv skit. fun....

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Perspective




Perspective is a funny thing. Rooted in the attitudes we carry, it can be that which weighs us down or releases us into more freedom. The question is, where does our perspective come from? Is it established over time in our mere experiences? Is it chosen? We must ask ourselves where our perspective comes from... I believe it comes from the combination of our experiences, knowledge and wisdom we have aquired along the way that God has revealed to us, and choice.

Did I lose you at choice? Yes, I said choice... Ohh I forgot the part about attitude. Yes, choice of attitude. We can all be looking at the same situation and see it completely different. Ok so there are words for this kind of thing...lets label it, like everything else... Optimistic and pessimistic... or negative attitude and positive attitude.UGGH. I hate these labels... it suggests the inability to be more than one or the other. As if you are either an optimist, or a pessimist. That's rather ridiculous being that there are plenty of things I am very optimistic about and others that I struggle with being pessimistic on.... The very things that my perspective may seem right to me and wrong to another. I would like to think that I always draw from the Lord my perspective...but well lets face it I am human and that just doesn't always happen. I desire to have Godly perspective, and good attitudes. Renew my mind with the Word of God. " Create in me a clean heart, and renew in me a right spirit" Because the one I've got gets pessimistic, doubtful, angry, and skeptical.... did I say tired as well? Tired. So maybe perspective also is shaped by rest and/or weariness... hmmm. Maybe I better get refreshed a bit and rested up before I choose how I am going to respond to the next life situations rushing at me. Thank you Jesus for quiet mornings like this one....

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Finding Forrester... finding me


So yesterday as I recovered from the morning of crying...(the cycle of my ex-husband returned to apologizing for his behavior the last two weeks, and I had my meltdown after holding up under it), I sat in my living room with the mounds of clothes that I have been sifting and sorting, folding and tossing. As I put another dent in decluttering my home, I watched Finding Forrester. It is one of my all time favorite movies... Sean Connery. Love the man, his voice, his countenance... really I love the inspiration of the character he brought to life. He is in the winter of his life... the young man he ends up mentoring in writing ends up inspiring him to get out of the apartment he has been held up in for decades, and go really live for the last year before he dies. The legacy he leaves the young man is indescribable... it is beyond just words. It has depth and breadth. I cried at the end of that too.... I had let go of another dream to go to college, to maintain, to survive... to run a business, to mother 3 kids, to clean, to build friendships... ok... excuses? I don't know. All I know is I am hungry for much, yet with little time to focus in. I have to set some priorities... so theres truly a time of finding me.

Thursday, September 4, 2008

The Clear Deep

When I think about deep water, I have always thought of "dark" depths that are scary and something to be avoided. I have much in my spirit, my heart and my mind... I have left in the deep...things of my life in the past and things yet to be discovered. God is changing my perspective... my perception of the deep. It can be illuminated and clear. I am fasting this month, and asking the Lord to bring clarity and depth in me. I will swim near the shore or in the deep with freedom and clarity and new perspective.